How long can I keep postponing the reality
of my senses, social standing and hunger?
How long can I keep fighting a war, lost already,
despite winning a handful of fights here and there?
It has been almost twelve months now I’m living on my dreams,
audacious for one from the third world middling class,
fatally foolish, I know, some would rightly say!
Perhaps my poor genes did not mutate properly,
for I know countless men and women too, who are
happy to live a rat’s life to its full extent,
living underground in fear and never too keen
to tie the bell, despite being cruelly victimized,
racing and multiplying like a fierce plague on earth,
to wipe out the planet from the face of the universe!
Well I can vent for all I want and call them any names
but perhaps that will only make my sin as grave as Cain’s,
for tonight a dreamer after dreaming his last,
will have to seek his way back to that despised world of rats
and only when he has nothing more to gain or has lost it all
will he return to his dreams with profuse apologies for the hiatus!
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What a gift in writing, you got great pieces here. Nice blog! 🙂
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thank you!
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Ahh, the ratrace… if only it were short lived, and only a fraction of our lives, compared to what it takes up right now. However, maybe in returning you can wake someone else up from the nightmare, and introduce them to the dream.
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that is so optimistic! thank you my friend!
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Looking forward to having you back amongst us, after that poignant farewell. Take care, my friend.
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thank you!
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All the very best for your future endeavours Amit! Expecting you back pretty soon.
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thank you kind friend!
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Welcome:)
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🙂
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Dear Amit,
Your words never leave empty. They always tug the heart and mind of your reader. In my selfish response- I wish you would keep writing, but in my generous one, I wish what is best for you.
Please do take a nice break, fill your lungs with happy Oxygen, and come back to us.
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so I guess friendship is selfish (as it should be) 😀 and you have my sincerest gratitude for both the wishes… I will be back to dreaming once I get myself employed in a revenue generating endeavor… for the rest I am keeping my fingers crossed, for taking a break from writing is like taking a break from breathing.
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😀 😀 That is great to hear! 😀 Keep writing dear friend! Will be here to read them 🙂
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for a couple of weeks I will only be able to blog in weekends (Friday and Saturday)… thank you for your assurance!
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Hello, hello, hello.
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ah, you changed your avatar!
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I did, even though I think I shouldn’t!
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disclosing is always good!
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Well, not always. I’m a social hermit, remember? Showing my face is really hard, and I wouldn’t do it without adding a bunch of effects in the picture. I like to think I look like a weird looking blue fairy now.
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I don’t know what weird means 😉 the rest I can comprehend!
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Do I even look recognizable? By the way, are you going to stop posting? I gotta catch up.
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I am afraid you do 😀 I hope to stop dreaming until I get a job… hope to keep up posting though
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Hopefully you will.
Ah, nobody can recognize a weird looking blue fairy. Mostly because… They don’t exist.
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I can recognize you in that supposed wired blue fairy effect and I see no wires coming out 😉
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Probably because you’ve been staring at me way too much. Or you just have a good memory.
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😀 ok
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Being cryptic with your little happy face, I see.
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:p can’t help being one, it’s in my veins
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Not sure what to say now… Hmm.
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you can call me Les Fleurs du mal
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You? I thought you were a Romantic sans decadence.
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oh no, I am just a romantic extremist!
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I think that extremist requires a bit of decadence if the topic is romance. I’m going to bed now, Amit. Have a good day, picture-less if you know what I mean. Night!
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forgive me for I have sinned 😀
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Sigh. I see we’re going to have a terrible argument tomorrow.
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yes 😀 but have you heard Six Days War?
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I’m not interested in wars.
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not even war of words? 😉
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We already had one less than 24h ago.
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so you are not interested in wars does not hold in that case… war is life
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I thought you were a lover, not a fighter. Those who are a bit of both never seem genuine to me.
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I am a lover but that does not make me a quitter so I am a fighter too… I fight for things I love
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Oh well, what do you love then?
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humanity and their insignificance in the scheme of the universe
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“The scheme of the universe” … Pretty words to mask the truth — chaos and the lack of fate.
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fate isn’t lacking and chaos is a creation of humanity…. both my friend are insignificant
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Where’s the “quasi”, Amit?
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The idea of fate being the real deal seems more like a creation than the existence of chaos.
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what is chaos, if you exclude our greed and lust from the equation? you will have naught. what you will have is entropy but that is not chaos.
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Lust and greed are not my outstanding personality traits.
That’s better than the idea that your life is already written, and that fate will guide you through your existence. A sad lie people tell themselves not to deal with the fact that we need to make our own choices, and deal with unfortunate consequences sometimes.
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you have fate and you have free will… none is complete without the other one and there is no absolute tyranny of one…
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Oh, so now fate isn’t the rule, I see.
Anyway, I should go for real now. I need a beauty sleep.
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fate is a rule but unlike human made ones… for example perhaps you think it is your free will that you are vegetarian … but what if fate wants you to destroy organisms with more than 50 thousand genes (plants) instead of organisms with about 25 thousand (animals) for your sustenance? I think you should sleep for the night
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As long as plants don’t have blue, brown, hazel and green sad eyes like pigs do, I’d fight against fate and keep eating my veggie burgers. Gotta now now. Buh bye.
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😀 of course good night! but can I say fate made you a vegetarian as long as you cannot exercise your free will to eat meat again? I told you my thought are too scattered today… sweet dreams! sleep well!
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That’s not the reason I’m vegetarian. Are you calling me fat?
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noooo
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Too late!!
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ooops!
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I’m fine with being “unattractive”
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that’s the spirit! but are we talking now or in the past? I thought now is too late!
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I don’t even know, honestly
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I pray you come back to the future!
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Prayers again?
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praying to you!
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*blocking your prayer with the power of my prayer*
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hahaha…. I am praying to you… who are you praying to, me?
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Myself.
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PS. Extremism*. Yes, I have to fix my sleepy mistakes. Night!
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in love I do not hold myself back,
I drink my life to lees
and hate discrimination with my life,
I think I am an extremist!
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I think you should be picture-less, Romeo.
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aye aye!
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So, what do you say?
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I say, hear this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GWmZhLjT7Uo
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Too late, eh?
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you are not that sleepy it seems
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Well, I should be since it’s almost 3am here. I can’t go to bed because I’m having a mild argument with you.
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I call for a hiatus!
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I thought you had said you weren’t a quitter.
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neither am I the sandman to rob your sleep…
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You’re just afraid of me, I suppose.
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😀 I am quite scared of people who go to war after declaring they are not interested in it!
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I’m too sleepy to have a proper fight. I’m just talking. Sadly, my words seem harsher on text.
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no problem, we can always carry on tomorrow
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As long as you are picture-less for real this time.
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then how will we supposed to have the fight tomorrow?
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We won’t since you will be picture-less after you read this comment. Please, I don’t want to keep arguing about this.
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Dear A,
Take a break , if you must , your life needs you.
Come back soon , if you can , we need you too 🙂
I hope this is the darkness before the rain of golden streaks . Love and prayers , Pri.
I have mentioned you in my post today . Wishing you well always.
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thank you, I am humbled!
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Have a good break my friend, and I hope you come back rejuvenated. Being away is needed to clear the mind and calm the soul sometimes, when outside chatters become too much. Be well!
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thank you dear Annie! light becomes more precious once we have reacquainted ourselves with darkness!
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I am saddened by this as it seems so lonely, and worthy of high anxiety. I hope a light shines for you if this is true, and a bright sunrise greets you with smiles.
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Amen! my gratitude!
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Wow! Despair flows out in this one. I hope this does not really mean you’re going on a hiatus. The poem is lovely, the message powerful – but, please don’t make it come real.
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thank you, it really means a lot!
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Beautiful poem Amit 🙂
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thank you Sumit!
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😊
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😀
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